The Dark Goddess, where the rubber meets the road

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Gilgamesh was an idiot. Come to think of it, so was Dumuzi.

Why were Gilgamesh and Dumuzi idiots?

It started with Dumuzi. Dumuzi was an idiot for cheating on his wife Inanna, while She was in the underworld, facing and overcoming Her own dark side, Ereshkigal.

Gilgamesh was an idiot for rejecting Inanna's hand and offer of immortality as Her consort, and rushing off on "a quest for the holy grail", only to be denied this prize at the bottom of a lake by the Serpent Herself. And then he rationalized, his immortality will live on in his public works as king. Last time I checked, there aren't any of his public works standing. Gilgamesh was an idiot.

And so are we, when we reject the call of the Dark Goddess. And so are we...

What is Her call? Who is this Femme Fatale that rules our dreams and passions?

Introducing the Dark Goddess

The Dark Goddess is far more prevalent in our daily lives, than we think. She exists in our day to day relationships, as that agent in our conscience that calls for Wisdom. She has no respect for status. She abhors elitists. She is a non-conformist. She is the spirit of rock & roll in the 60's. She is the topless feminist marching in the streets. She is the nurse dealing with the frustrated patient. She is the philosopher singing Her praises :) She is a myriad of things, and many other things She is not.


In world mythology, we encounter the Dark Goddess over and over as that aspect of the Goddess that makes us uncomfortable. Inanna is a classic example of this. Inanna is represented as the planet Venus. She is the pure Goddess of altruistic love (virgin);  she is the hot sexual Goddess (mother)... and the Goddess of war (crone / wise woman). And it is that last bit, the Goddess of war bit, the crone, the Sophia, that makes us uncomfortable. This was where Gilgamesh and Dumuzi lost the plot. This is the aspect of the Goddess, we all need to face and integrate within ourselves, if we are to make progress with the Creatrix of this universe.


The Dark Goddess as Transformer

The science of cymatics is a perfect visual illustration of the subtle, and sometimes not so subtle, work of the Dark Goddess in our daily lives. It is the mission of the universal Creatrix to assist all life in Her creation, to reach its objective for participating in Her binary hologram - this creation. As virgin, She inspires us, as mother She attracts and nourish us. As wise woman, She teaches us, and help us reach the objective of our personal eternal spirit, our Ka. It is in Her dark aspect as wise woman, where the Triple Universal Creatrix is the most compassionate.

What cymatics demonstrates very lucidly as a metaphor, is that Life within this universe moves from one ordered state of being, to a more complex order, in the following way:

1. The resonant frequency of the organism / system has increased. 
2. At a certain point in the frequency shift, the internal order of the organism / system brakes down into chaos
3. As the resonant frequency is further increased, the organism / system reorganizes itself into a higher order of complexity.

It is very critical to understand that the Dark Goddess as transformer, is akin to a doctor that has to sometimes hurt us, in order to heal us; She is not like a psychopath that hurts us for amusement. This is a very important point. The chaos, the pain, the confusion in our lives, all of it, can serve as an opportunity to transform on the level of our spirit and soul, and sometimes even physically, if we allow the Dark Goddess to complete Her work in our lives. Sure, we can stop Her operation in our lives for a time, even a lifetime. And when we do, She backs off, but not forever. Not forever. Like any good mother, She does not relent in Her mission of raising us, Her adopted children.

One of the best examples of the Dark Goddess as transformer in our lives, is in Her manifestation as Kali. In the popular Indian images of Kali, She is depicted with a blood dripping cycle in one of Her hands, and the heads of her enemies in another hand, and their skulls draped around her waste. When we ask who's heads Kali collects, any devotee of the Dark Goddess will tell you it is the heads of demons, which indicates the egos of Her devotees.

...and yes, there I used the 'e' word... a word terribly misunderstood around spiritual seekers, and even more abused by gurus and spiritual guides (both incarnate and disincarnate). Here is my take on 'ego and the Dark Goddess': it is not the intent of the Dark Goddess that we should abscond our personality! It is not Her intent to create any more Borg style, hive-mind collectives. What the Mother intends here, is that we bring our personalities into resonance with four constructs: our personal Spirit (Ka); our Soul (Ba) as well as with Her personal Spirit and Her Soul. The intent is to have a harmonic resonant dance between our incarnated personality (ego), and these aspects of ourselves, and Herself. A partnership, a dance - not a dictatorship.

Stated differently, it is the intent of the Dark Goddess for egos to mature. The Mother analogy is again very helpful here. She wants the egos of Her adopted children to move from one ordered state of being, to a more complex order... and the act of transformation brings chaos. (for more detail on my cosmological understanding, read Numbers and the Neteru)

Through-out all our transformations, the Dark Goddess acts as a guide, a psychopomp. This guidance is offered to us not only in this life, but also in the afterlife. This is also why we find iconography of the Dark Goddess in Her manifestation as Hekate, with a torch held in each of her hands. This is also another reason why Hekate is associated with crossroads. As guide to the soul and educator of the ego, the Dark Goddess guides us through our instincts and intuitions, and NOT through our minds. This guidance happens at the crossroads of our lives, in the thick or things, where the rubber meets the road.


The Dark Goddess and Taboos

But the immature ego, emotional-metal body, rejects the psychopomp. One of the most prevalent ways in which the undeveloped ego rejects Her is via cultural constructs such as dogma, convention and personal status. The undeveloped ego seeks safety in numbers, but this safety is an empty shell. At some point in a person's incarnation, his or her soul will sing the siren song of the Dark Goddess, under Her guidance, beckoning the ego to seek out something with more meaning and permanence, than prestige and material possessions. The ego may respond to the call and become a seeker. But dogma, convention and personal status often creates too much interference in the ego's resonance to his or her soul and spirit.

At this point the Dark Goddess may specifically encourage the seeker to deliberately move against dogma, convention and personal status. This is where the Dark Goddess will encourage the celibate priest to indulge in promiscuous sex; the bigoted vegetarian to eat meat; the undisciplined hippy to find a job, and work for 'the man'.

The simple fact of the matter is that the wise woman, the Sophia, has no respect nor time for the laws of men and their egos. What She does care about, deeply, is Life and the completion of the personal spiritual mission of each life form. One of Her primary concerns in this regard is that Her adopted children, you, me, and all Lifeforms in Her creation, discovers and lives their internal sovereignty, and do it in such a way that it is in harmony with our environment. This is why her law states: "ain harm none, do what ye wilt". The Dark Goddess is therefore to be found among those who cherish their own freedom responsibly, and who cherishes truth above all.

All of this makes Her the queen of fringe, truthers and the weird ones.

Can the voice and personal guidance of the Dark Goddess be found in sexual activity, with for instance a priestess or dominatrix?

When the ego gains maturity in these acts, yes, absolutely. It is completely normal and natural that the voice of the Dark Goddess can be found in a seeker's deliberate sexual interaction with a priestess or dominatrix. It is also equally normal that the undeveloped ego of the "priestess or dominatrix", be a greater hindrance than a help in the spiritual development of the seeker. There are no easy answers, nor silver bullets here - exactly the way She wants it!

Does the Dark Goddess require worship?

No. She does not. She does not suffer from the same inferiority complex than some of the other self proclaimed demiurges does. But having said that, it is perfectly plausible, and often imperative that our undeveloped egos desperately need to offer Her utter worship and devotion. If this be the case, She will demand it of us, for our own benefit. And once again, the form this worship takes will differ widely from seeker to seeker. I hope the distinction is clear.

And what about sacrifice?

This is very much the same as with worship. The Dark Goddess requires no sacrifice in order to maintain a fragile identity (as with some of the other self obsessed demiurges :), but in the process of ego transformation into maturity, it is very possible that the seeker does need to make sacrifices. It is Her will that life evolves and thrives, but undeveloped egos often stands in the way of this, and in Her wisdom, She may require sacrifices to be made, in order for the ego to move forward.

Does this include animal sacrifice?

It is not the desire not the will of the Dark Goddess that animals should die for human egos. But throughout history, they have, and even there She will make the most of the situation.


Her endgame

What is the purpose of the work of the Goddess in our lives? What does She desire for Her adopted children (all Life in this universe)? What is Her endgame?

The endgame of the Goddess is that each individual spirit who partakes in Her creation of duality, via a soul, which She entrusted to that eternal spirit, will reach a point where all internal conflicts has been resolved to the point where frequency increases does not cause a breakdown into chaos of the organism / system.

I also encourage you to research the myth of Isis, Osirus and Horus (if you have not done so already), with the role of Isis as psychopomp in mind. Also rethink the process of alchemy in this cosmic context. It is the same mission, guided by the same universal Wise Woman...

Revisiting the Aeon of Horus

 

                                                                                                     Alice Zilberberg.

                                                                                                    Gaia Giving Birth to Uranus 

Have you ever wondered why this “age of Aquarius” is called the “Aeon of Heru” (Age of Horus)?

Well, the truth is, I have always wondered… and an answer came to me some days ago.

Astrologically it is generally accepted that after the crossing of the galactic equator in December 2012, we officially entered the age of Aquarius. So, what does Aquarius have to do with Horus?

Each astrological house has a ruling planet, and the ruling planet of Aquarius is Uranus. 

What is the connection between Uranus and Horus?

Ouranos, is the name of the primordial Greek god of the sky. He was an emanation before the Titans, being a father of the Titans, who was an emanation before the Olympians. This guy is as ancient as we can go! According the the Greeks, he is older than time itself (Chronos)  

And his consort was… the Earth (Gaia), and according to Hesiod's Theogony, also the son of Gaia ("At first, Gaia the earth, does not need males to help her give birth to the rest of her domain, namely the mountains, the sea, and the sky").   

I found, the myth of the struggle between Ouranos and his children with the Mother Earth a fascinating read, but the bit that caught my attention was the part where Chronos (Saturn) cut off the testacies of Ouranos.

Where have we heard this before?

Of course! If we overlay the Osirian myth over this one, we can see that Seth (Sutek) represents Chronos (Saturn / Satan) and Ouranos has to represent Osirus (Asur).

And the reconstruction / resurrection of Osirus is Heru. And there we have the final piece of the puzzle in place: Ouranos == Asur  == Heru

What does not make sense is that Gaia supported the Titans in their struggle against Ouranos, where Isis (Aset) supported the struggle of Heru against Sutek.

The only explanation I have in this synthesis of mine is that the Earth Mother either changed Her alliances over time, or that She was following a larger plan of Her own, which is either not contained in the myths, or lost, or deliberately deleted from history.  

Anyway, we know that Gaia is the primordial Goddess, and Isis had been given the same title as Creatrix of this universe. So the Mother and son relationship between Gaia and Ouranos is thereby established - as Hesiod also mentioned.

So. Where does this leave us?

I would say, astrologically speaking, at an interesting juncture. What we know of Ouranos is that he did not like what was occurring on the Earth in terms of what the Titans were up to.

We also know that he was on one occasion called the "prince of philosophers" (lovers of Sophia):

Pausanias - book 1 [Attica], 30.3 - Not far from the Academy is the monument of Plato, to whom Ouranos [Heavens] foretold that he would be the prince of philosophers. The manner of the foretelling was this. On the night before Plato was to become his pupil Socrates in a dream saw a swan fly into his bosom. Now the swan is a bird with a reputation for music, because, they say, a musician of the name of Swan became king of the Ligyes on the other side of the Eridanus beyond the Celtic territory, and after his death by the will of Apollon he was changed into the bird. I am ready to believe that a musician became king of the Ligyes, but I cannot believe that a bird grew out of a man.

And we know that Ouranos represented “sky”…

Could there be a connection between Ouranos and the original guardians who seeded life on Earth?

Are these original guardians incarnating (as Heru’s) now, and restoring the reign of their higher emanation as Ouranos / Asur?

Chronos will tell… :)   

Numbers and the Neteru

(Tripple Goddess by Maxine Miller)

This post is a summation of my gnosis of the Neteru. 

The 10 Neteru (divine principals) are: 

0 [The Multiverse]

1. Aset - Virgin

2. Heka - Mother

3. Kali – Wisdom

4. Asur – First son

5. Sutek – Scattered son

6. Heru – Restored son

7. [Addition]

8. [Unification]

9. [Completion]

The Multiverse 

Before this universe, life existed in states that we cannot fathom, nor remember. For the purpose of gnosis in this universe, these states are called the multiverse, and it is left at that – for now...  

The Great Triple Goddess

The Great Triple Goddess is the primordial Creatrix of this universe. She is timeless. She has no beginning and no end. Her essence (Ka) is a Spiritual essence from the Multiverse.

The Great Triple Goddess is the Virgin, the Mother and the Wise Woman. As virgin I know Her as an avian creature. As Mother I know Her as a human creature. As Wise Woman, I know Her as a serpentine creature.

The Virgin, Aset, is the winged Sun. The Mother, Heka, is the pregnant Earth. The Wise Woman, Kali, is the serpent Moon.

All three states of the Goddess are inter-associated with all three of these names.

At present, Her principal mission in Her divine inter-play of duality, this universe, is to see to the final integration of the opposites in this universe (8). Some types of opposites will be unified into a zero point: male / female, electrical positive / electrical negative. Some types of opposites will be unified through the obliteration of one side: truth (remains) / lie (obliterated), moral good (remains) / moral evil (obliterated). This act of the Great Triple Goddess is Her alchemical Magnum Opus – Her Great Work.

The Great Triple Goddess is the guide for souls in this universe. Whether the souls are in an incarnate or dis-incarnate state.

This Magnum Opus of the Goddess is accomplished within Her son, Asur-Sutek-Heru, as well as in Her adopted children (sons and daughters), you and me.

Numerologically 1 is the great manifestor, 2 the mother of all duality and 3, wisdom and power.

The Mother’s son

The Creatrix of this universe manifested this creation as holographic fractal of opposites. Her primary opposite was the manifestation of a companion, Her son. The son is a mirror reflection of the Mother. The Mother is the observer, the son, the observed. The Mother the creator, the son, the created. 

Our Creatrix manifested this universe from Her own spiritual essence, through the physical light of Her 4 universal forces: electromagnetism, gravity, the nuclear forces and time. Her 4 forces are the foundation of everything we experience in this universe. Great Triple Goddess Herself is the principle which animates them. She is therefore also the physical-energetic-tempic embodiment of the manifest universe. Thus the Great Triple Goddess is both a Spirit (Ka) as well as visible Light (mer), Her son. 

There is only one son. The son has a beginning (alpha) and an end (omega). 

In perfect opposition to the Mother, the son has 3 manifest phases: Asur, the first son (4) ; Sutek, the scattered son (5) and Heru, the restored son (6).

This post is made at the dawn of the Earth age of Heru, the restored son.

The mission of Heru is to overcome his inner division, the Sutek, and thereby re-manifest the original intent of Asur. At present, this is the only task of the son: to allow the Magnum Opus of the Goddess to be accomplished within himself.

At this time, at this point (6), it is incorrect and confusing to think of the son as a father.

Numerologically 4 is the manifest universe, 5 a scattering and 6 a restoration of inner harmony.

The Nameless Manifest  

The numbers 7, 8 and 9 are not represented by names. Yet these are very active Neteru, participating in this creation. 

For the sake of understanding, I call them: 7 [Addition], 8 [Unification] and 9 [completion]. 

1 to 9 represents this manifest universe. When 0 is added, to include the multiverse, we have 10 Neteru.  

7 [Addition] is the participation of countless Spirits from the multiverse, in the co-creation of this universe. All souls are eternal Spirits in essence, co-creating within this universe of the Great Triple Goddess. You are such a Spirit. I am such a Spirit. 

To function in this universe, we inhabit a soul (ba), a vehicle for our timeless Spirit (Ka).

Some souls have declared themselves “GOD”, the creator of the multiverse. They are simply suffering from delusion. There is no such a thing as a creator of the multiverse; as a creator of the individual timeless Spirit's (Ka's).

Now. In a physical (mer) and soul (ba) sense, this universe has a primordial Creatrix, the Great Triple Goddess, yes. However note that She operates silently, with great empathy and humiliation, and in partnership with Her creation, Her divine son, and Her adopted children. 

The Creatrix Mother has adopted countless genderless Spirits from the multiverse, all of whom co-creates this universe in partnership with Her. You are such an eternal Spirit. I am such an eternal Spirit. Our Spirits have no creator. Our essence (Ka) is as divine as any other aspect of the multiverse. But as souls (ba) and as physical incarnations (bodies / mer), we are fragile;  in a soul and physical sense, we are absolutely dependent on Great Triple Goddess, our adopted Mother - whether we like it or not. 

As guide to all souls, we can ask the Great Triple Goddess to assist us in achieving our unique Spirit's objectives within Her universe. We are, after all, guests in Her house, and She is a great, gracious hostess, who is also terrifying, when we oppose Her Spiritual objective, Her Magnum Opus. 

Each of us are also affected by Her cosmic duality. Each of us are here to resolve the duality within ourselves. Just as with Her son, the Great Triple Goddess acts as primary Spiritual guide for each soul in this universe, Her house, in order to assist all co-creators in our collective, and individual Magnum Opera. 

8 [Unification]. Unification is the point at which this universe achieves its objective, which is the unification of all opposites. At this point, the Magnum Opus of the Creatrix is achieved. This does not mean the end of this creation, on the contrary, this will be the ages in which this creation is enjoyed for what it was originally intended – a play of opposites, each re-integrating into unity.

This age of universal magic will be the age of the Christos. At this time, I expect many more adoptions of Ka's from the multiverse to take place. All of which will have the experience of the 1, 2 and 3 - manifestation, duality and newly attained wisdom. These experiences are attained through and as a 4 (mer / Light)   

9 [Completion]. Completion is the point at which this universe will change so fundamentally, that there are no longer any opposites at play. Theoretically this point will happen when no further new Ka's desire the experience of mer. 

Numerologically 7 represents addition of complexity, 8 universal re-generation / unification and 9 universal completion.

0 and 10 represents the whole.

The fallacy of unconditional love

One of the primary doctrines sold to humanity by just about all the new age teachers, is an idea they call “unconditional love” or “unconditional forgiveness”.

The general idea is that unless we as human individuals and as a collective, attain to this ideal of “unconditional love” in our day to day life situations, we will be “struck” in 3D, unable to reach the “heavenly realms” of 5D via a process called “ascension”.

This is utter nonsense, and in this post I aim to explain why I reject this poisonous doctrine.

Here is a scenario:

Jane is in an abusive relationship with Jim, a psychopath that torments her physically and emotionally. Year in and year out Jim promises that he will stop the abuse, but he never does.

Should Jane abandon her relationship with Jim?

I say a resounding yes, definitely. The teaching of unconditional love has to say no.

Let me explain why the new agers have it very wrong, and why this is such a poisonous doctrine.

The ultimate goal of this universe is to integrate opposites. The ultimate goal of humans is to figure out how to do this. We all probably agree on this, to some degree, but the question is this:

How is the integration archived?

Since the universe is a binary fractal (see my 3 Awakening posts), which operates like a sine wave (which implies time), we have to look at the operations of the sine wave, to understand our relationships and the experiences within our relationships.

In the illustration above we see 5 key points in the relationship between a perpetrator of a crime and the victim of a crime. (Since we are dealing with a relationship, both parties find their 

relationship at these various points.)

a. The start of the relationship

b. A crime is committed in the relationship, i.e. abuse 

c. The crime has ceased, if possible, fair compensation has taken place

d. Forgiveness have taken place within both parties (the perpetrator has forgiven him/herself, the victim has forgiven the perpetrator).

e. Final integration, balance within the relationship is achieved, and both parties have grown through the experience. 

This is how all crimes should be handled, no matter what they are: major crimes; petty crimes; crimes against many people; crimes against an individual, doesn’t matter. 

The problem with “unconditional love” is it keeps us stuck at point b, because it does not insist that point c has to take place, and even worse, it pretends that the way forward is not point c, but point d. 

In English, unconditional love does not apply the condition that a crime has to stop before forgiveness can take place. It claims that integration can take place solely via the act of forgiveness. 

What happens in effect, is a perfect abuse scenario for the perpetrator of the crime, because the teaching of unconditional love allows the perpetrator to continue with the crime. And because of this, the victim cannot, and will not find closure. The victim may pretend to have found closure, but this would be denial and self-deception, which happens way more in our society than it should!

So I hope I made it clear that I am not advocating “keeping grudges”. That would happen if the relationship got stuck at point c. What I am advocating is that the action of harm against an individual or a collective has to stop first, then the process of restoration can begin through the divine act of forgiveness.

There cannot be such a thing as unconditional love. Love implies that the relationship between two or many people, operates out of mutual respect and co-operation. If this mutual respect and co-operation is violated via harm done, it has to be restored again:

1. the crime has to stop and if possible, fair compensation has to occur
2. forgiveness on all sides has to happen.

These are very clear conditions, a framework if you will, within which Love can flourish. Any suggestion to the contrary will lead humanity into slavery of the worst kind!

Awakenings – Part 3

(Click here to read part two of this article – Awakenings – part 2)

I have only discovered the work of George Kavassilas a couple of weeks ago in this epic interview with Alfred Lambremont Webre. George’s worldview immediately made sense to me. George has a conceptual framework which brings all the pieces of the puzzle I have described earlier, and some I have not yet described, into a unified whole.



Here is George’s website:
 https://iaminfinite.love

And here is a pdf of his ideas:
http://www.galaksija.com/literatura/ouj.pdf

I have not yet researched all of George’s material, but it does seem in the past he did get sucked into the Galactic Federation of Light, which he now seem to have rejected. His views on the December 2012 “ascension” and OPPT was cautious, but it does seem he had made some predictions that did not pan out.

Does any of this bother me?

Not really. I was also sucked into all three of those “New Age” movements because I tend to immerse myself into anything that resonates with my original awakening experience.

Ultimately I am not seeking a teacher that I can trust. My teacher is within.  I am however, seeking information that can help me solve my own internal puzzle faster, and George’s information has taken this to a whole new level for me. Let me try to summarise how I understand George’s ideas (some of my own insights will be inserted here and there as augmentations to the core ideas):


Our Origin

• There exists an infinite number of universes – the Omni-verse.
• There also exists an infinite number of souls.
• Each soul is a primordial and unique expression of the One Infinite Being.
• Souls manifests universes and then inhabits them – for pleasure, for greater Self-expression and greater Self-discovery.
• Souls inhabits each other’s universes.
• This universe in which we have the Earth, was created by a Soul who decided to explore the idea of duality.
• The Being thus divided Itself into a myriad fractal binary expressions. In the primordial expression of this Universal Creator we had the first Light / Sound / Fractal Waveform of this creation. This is also known as the Universal Logos. This is the origin of this universe of Light.
• An astounding amount of souls entered into this Binary Waveform Universe to co-create and to co-experience the waveform / light with the original Creator (who was now primordially embodied in two genders – male and female)
• As souls in this universe, we embody all life forms. We are gods, we are angels, we are plant collectives, we are planets, suns, we are hive minds, we are individual creatures, we are animals, we are insect collectives, we are amoeba collectives. Each of us exists in many many dimensional levels, on many planets, on many galaxies.

Our Destiny

• The destiny of this universe is to integrate all opposites on all levels. No-one of Us, including the original Creator of this universe, has any idea what will happen when all duality has been integrated, but we are expecting something brand new and indescribably awesome to be manifest.
• The original creator if this universe decided the time was right to begin the universal end-game, of integration of the opposites. He-She put out a call to souls who wished to participate. This manifestation is also known as the formation of the universal Christ. 
• Not all the souls “heard the call” at the time. Those who did not would later on represent the polarised opposition to the new plan (to create a universal integration of the opposites).
• The Earth is THE place where opposites are integrated in this universe. The process went like this:

1. Our Milky Way galaxy was co-created to contain representation of most galaxies in this universe. We are talking DNA, which contains much more than a blueprint for physical expression. It also contains information. We are also talking about a very advanced form of astrology.
2. The Milky Way became a “compressed representative fractal” of the entire universe.
3. The next “compressed representative fractal” of the entire universe to be co-created was our solar system. The solar system, became a representation of everything genetically and energetically that goes on in our galaxy.
4. The next “compressed representative universal fractal” was our co-creation of the Earth.
5. The next “compressed representative universal fractal” was our co-creation of human beings.

• Humanity thus contains the genetic and energetic codes of the entire universe. So does our environment. So does our solar system. So does our galaxy. All levels of the fractal representation is key. (I will expand on this mush more in future posts).
• Since our galaxy is a representation of all the key opposite universal dramas playing out in our universe, a war broke out. Many factions were fighting against many factions, each claiming to represent “the light”, and fighting against “the dark”.
• This galactic war found its way down the fractal path of compressed representative universal fractal, into our solar system; into the Earth; and into each human being.
• The ultimate task of humans is to integrate all the polar opposites; first within ourselves; then without our neighbourhoods; then globally; then in the solar system; then in the galaxy; then in the universe.
• When we have done so, collectively, in cooperation with the Mother Earth, the Father Sun and the solar system, we will become the Christ - a universal super Being who heals / restores / integrates all opposites in this universe - the apokatastasis. The End. Game Over.

This was a summary of how I understand the ideas of George Kavassilas. This explanation of the human origin and destiny makes total sense to me, and in future posts I will be pointing back to this core understanding repeatedly.

George does mention a whole range of other ideas as well in his interviews. Some which I agree with, some which I do not quite agree with. The most marked point of disagreement is his “preaching” of “unconditional love”. As pointed out in earlier posts, I reject this idea, and will explain my thoughts on the matter in more detail in posts to come as well.

Another point on which I differ with Mr. Kavassilas is his assertion that he Kundalini / Holy Spirit is an archonic ploy. From my perspective, these are simply ways in which the Great Triple Goddess (Ka) reveals Herself in Her creation. Nothing archonic, quite the opposite, in my personal experience!

I’m going to leave it at that for now. What I would like to say is a huge THANK YOU to George for explaining the story behind the story of human origin and destiny. It integrates all the bits and pieces I have been collecting over many years… sort of like a “master key”.

I hope we use this powerful information with humility and wisdom.

Awakenings – part 2

(Click here to read part one of this article – Awakenings – part 1)

When you remember ET aspects of yourself, this does not mean that you have now arrived spiritually, nor can go back to a regular life. Quite the opposite!

Amongst many personal challenges, it is very normal, very human, to want to integrate and understand these extraordinary experiences, and invariably, these experiences took me on the path of a seeker.

As a seeker I had looked into countless metaphysical writings and philosophies. Down below are the three bodies of knowledge that helped me get prepared for “my integration”, which I will explain in the next post (awakenings – part 3).


Non-duality

My first important /core metaphysical discovery was “A Course in Miracles” through the work of Gary Reynard, through a book called “The Disappearance of the Universe”.

I understood these main ideas from the Gary Reynard / ACIM material:

• This universe was created by a son of god, who explored separation from god, and the creation that resulted, is an imperfect creation, because of the primary duality involved. The creation contains the good things (from god), but it also contains bad things, which has nothing to do with god (the father of the son).
• The deluded son suffers from a massive “super ego”, the belief that it is separate from a formless and identity-less spiritual essence (the father).
• As creations of the deluded son, we suffer from the same issues as the deluded son, the main issue is our ego.
• The creation of this universe, and the resulting egos, was and continues to be, a mistake.
• The mistake can only be rectified through unconditional forgiveness, of ourselves, of the deluded son and of the world around us.
• When all have forgiven all, this universe will be no more, it will disappear, and everything will be restored to such a degree that all experiences in this universe will be uncreated.

Interview with an Alien

Interview with an Alien, the testimony of Matilda O'donnell Macelroy, contained these ideas:

• All Life / Souls / Beings in this universe and on Earth as well, are infinite Beings, which have always existed, and which currently also exists outside of this universe.
• The original creator of this universe entrapped all souls in its universe. They are all giving live / animation, to this universal creator’s creation.
• Earth is a prison where those who question this creator are sent, as well as those souls who are so criminally deviant that they are beyond redemption.
• The Earth is under quarantine, as a prison system.
• The alien did not offer any solutions.

Cobra

Cobra puts out his ideas in the blog 2012portal.blogspot.com. Cobra’s material contains these ideas:

• This universe is a result of a primary anomaly. The anomaly is not a mistake, it is more a case of in a universe of infinite possibility this was bound to occur sometime, and in the case of this universe, it did occur.
• The primary anomaly was the cause of duality, principally light and darkness, and these two opposites has been at war with each other in this galaxy (he hasn’t yet mentioned other galaxies).
• In this galactic war between forces of the light and forces of the dark, the Earth, and people on Her surface, was taken hostage by the dark side.
• Light side is in the process of liberating the Earth from the dark side, but because it is a hostage situation, and because of very advanced weaponry used by the dark, the process of liberation has to be completed carefully.
• At some point, the light side will disable all of the hostage weaponry, and when this happens, The Event will occur.
• Cobra has consistently said that no time-frame can be given for when this Event will happen.
• When the Event will happen, the global economy will be restored to a gold-backed transitional economy, on the way to a money-less economy eventually. In addition advanced energy, healing and other cool technologies will be made available to humanity, to restore ourselves and our planet.
• Once we have raised our vibration enough after the Event, we will have official first contact.
• The Earth is the final frontier of the conflict between forces of the light, and forces of the dark. Once the Earth is liberated and restored, the dark will be eradicated completely from this universe.
• The final liberation is at hand, and issues such as the technological singularity and artificial intelligence, rouge cosmic planets, asteroids and meteorites are non-issues, because the forces of Light has it covered.
• Cobra claims to be in service to “the Goddess”, but has not yet explained the relationship between the god and the goddess in the context of the universal war.
• Cobra also seems to have a relationship with the good inner earth folk, the ascended masters, and other “positive” galactic forces.

 
My comments on these concepts:

As you can see, these are all very powerful and unusual metaphysical ideas, some even science fiction sounding. They share certain elements, and also contradict each other. The contradictions are not that easy to see, but in future blog posts I intend to get deeper into these contradictions, and also into the points of agreement.

But first just a couple of general observations:


Non-duality

Non-duality was like a sledge hammer to help me grow spiritually. Here are my conclusions on the ACIM / Reynard material:

• I reject the idea that we should aspire to have no ego whatsoever. Without an ego, we cannot operate in any level of this universe, because an ego is our collection of memories of unique and individual life experiences. Without an ego we will be suffering from the worst form of Alzheimer’s.
• I reject the idea that the creation of this universe was as a “mistake”. How can that which is perfect (what we all are in our Eternal Nature), make a mistake? I view this universe a tough school for self-discovery, no mistake made in its creation, and massive learning and self-discoveries made inside it.
• I reject the idea that the universe was created by the deluded son. From my perspective, the universe is co-created by all the Beings that lives in it, as Interview with an Alien explained. Yes there was an original creator, but we are all equal co-creators with that original creator of this universe. The reason why this distinction is critical is this: I am not the “deluded son”. Yes I have shared in his delusions for learning purposes, but I am not that Being. The original (first) creator of this universe is also not deluded. The delusions came later on from co-creators. 
• An egoless society lends itself to a hive mind mentality. This is a perfect control scenario for psychopaths.
• Unconditional forgiveness is a dream scenario for psychopaths. I screw you, you have to forgive me. I screw you some more. You have to forgive some more…  I don't think it works like that. 
• Yes, there is a false ego construct (since everything here is binary), and it is critical to become aware of its operation in our lives. The best way that I have discovered to deal with the false ego in my own life, is to adhere to the idea of the wiccan rede very alertly: “An it harm none, do what ye will.” Both ideas in the rede are equally important: the first bit deals with the false ego, and the second bit liberates us from the super ego control system (also known as the God program / matrix).
• The big personal aha in the ACIM / Reynard material was that the Christ idea is an integration of the dualities of this universe, within all of us, and once this is done, this universe will be no more. One classical concept which relates this idea as well is the gnostic idea of the apokatastasis: at the conclusion of this universe, all live, all Beings will be embody the Christ, and then we, as all souls who participated in this universe, will move on to whatever will be our next adventure.

Interview with an Alien

• Interview with an Alien communicated a massive Truth: we, all life, all souls in this universe, are all Eternal Beings, co-creating with this creator. This is fundamental, and I will get deeper into this in future posts.
• I reject the idea that we are prisoners, BUT I do accept that we are in a “quarantine zone”. From my perspective the “quarantine zone” / the veil / the frequency fence is more like a cocoon for "worms transforming into butterflies", than a prison. I will elaborate about the purpose of the veil in future posts :).
• Yes, the Earth consists of all sorts: brilliant artists, psychopaths and everything in-between.
• This body of material did not offer solutions, but then again, the messenger is not supposed to be the engineer, right?

Cobra

• It seems humanity is being prepared for “first contact”, and it seems the first contact ET’s we will encounter, will present themselves as our “saviors”, but in a feigned modest way. A case can be made that we would also want to help out of common decency, if we were in the shoes of the "light" side... but it is also true that humans should be left to fight their own battles in order to grow and to evolve. This is not an easy answer... both sides of the argument has validity. But I would prefer the light to neutralize the interference of the dark behind the scenes, and leave humanity alone to evolve into it's evolutionary destiny, unhindered by ET interference.  Why the fanfare?
• I expect “The Event” to occur, probably in our lifetimes, and I expect living conditions on Earth to improve dramatically as a result.
• I agree about the galactic war. I have witnessed some of it in my "spirit journeys".  
• I accept that there is a "hostage drama" going down on Earth for the past 300 000 years or so as a result of a war of the “light” against the “dark”. The part where I disagree with Cobra is in the solution. His solution is essentially an uncompromising eradication of all that is "dark". This wont work. In this universe it is impossible to eradicate “dark”, and completely focus on “light”. Why? It is a fractal waveform universe, consisting of up and down cycles. An up cycle needs the counter-balancing down cycle. When you move your intention exclusively to one direction (up or down), you will at some point be forced to experience the polar opposite. I therefore conclude that the Cobra material / agenda, does not wish to resolve duality, but rather, to perpetuate it. 
• According to my Pleiadian future self, artificial intelligence, transhumanism, extropianism, and so on, is a very real problem for the future of humanity and the rest of the galaxy. This path leads humans into becoming the Zeta Reticuli race in the deep future. I think we should worry about AI, and not leave it to some ET group to fix on our behalf...   
• I reject the idea that the primary duality is an anomaly, as with the ACIM material, my take is that there are no mistakes made on the level of awareness that manifests universes.
• There are other channels / contactees also putting out similar info to Cobra, one important source is Sheldon Niddle. His website is www.paoweb.com

This hopefully gives you some insight into the topics I discovered and deliberated about in my path for the past 20 years.

In the next post I will explain my latest metaphysical discovery, and how it integrates all the core pieces of the puzzle I had been collecting over the years.

Awakenings - part 1

I have never heard, nor met a human Being who simply woke up one day, and deeply knew (gnosis) and understood the core assumptions that I have described in my introductory post. And so, it has been for me as well… the process of Awakening has been a journey that started for me of over 30 years ago.

Yet I have had key events on the path, and I would like to share them here as concisely as I can.

First Awakening

So, I grew up as a Christian who started out as a protestant, from my upbringing, to a spirit filled charismatic bible basher. Luckily, the latter phase only lasted about three years (in my very early 20’s).

The Christian trip came to an abrupt halt when I had a major satori experience, in which I understood the universe to be:

1. A binary fractal at all levels. Positive / negative, male / female, light / dark, good / bad and, lie / truth, illusion / reality on and on it goes. It is binary, and it is nested infinitely in a fractal way, therefore good is not equal to let’s say male or female exclusively. 
2. The universe is a wave form, like a sine-wave
3. Because of the inherent binary nature of everything, we live in a reality, on Earth, that is partly real, and partly illusion.
4. Life is a game.
5. Conversely, the game is pretty serious stuff, and our time for figuring out the game as human Beings are running out fast.
6. I am a universal co-creator (in the divine sense of the word) 
7. As a co-creator Being I have screwed up big time, and needed to rectify what I screwed up.    
8. As a co-creator Being I have done absolutely nothing wrong. 
9. We, all Life Beings are One. At the ultimate level of Being, beyond this universe, there is only One Infinite Being, expressing in a Myriad various ways, thereby experiencing Itself. I am it. You are it. All Life is it. That's it. 
10. 1 + 1 = 1 (the whole) and simultaneously Infinity (because of the fractal Nature of it All).

These insights came to me spontaneously as I contemplated life as a third year BA Archaeology student, and the experience rocked my world to such a degree, that my Christian beliefs were completely shattered.

The Old Man

A couple of years later I met my one and only spiritual mentor, an old man in the Knysna forest, and spent a couple of months with him. 

The old man claimed to be an angelic walk-in from very high up. To this day, I believe him. His energy was VERY pure. But he also had an ego. Was a treat to know him.

The old man helped me wake up to one major topic, which I had not taken seriously up until that point: Extra Terrestrials. That was about it. That was pretty much mostly what we discussed at the time that I stayed with him in the forest.    

Avalon

I got married to the amazing woman who is my friend and lover to this day, and together we decided to see some of the world, and like many South Africans, this turned out to be working in the United Kingdom. We did this for two years.

During this time, I got an intuitive call to go to Glastonbury, of which I knew absolutely nothing, and to do a certain intuitive magical ceremony at the top of the Tor.

My partner and I did the ceremony together, and in so doing, I opened a portal for some of my Extra Terrestrial identities to merge with me consciously – a conscious integration of my over-soul.

One of the key identities is a draco from the Orion system, specifically from Alnilam. But other identities also surfaced, i.e. an avian from pretty high up in the dimensions (therefore no specific planetary system), and a feminine humanoid from the Pleiadian system, a “future self”.    

At this time I also re-connected with the Orion Serpent Mother as my spiritual guide and companion, who is the same essence as the Being who is the Earth Mother.  I call Her: “Ka”. Yes, She is the triple queen of the Galactic Empire. On Earth She is also known as Kali, the destroyer of the false ego.  

And before I could tell the old man about any of this exciting stuff, he died. Drat. Now I had to walk the path alone with my darling life companion; a bag full of alien memories and the Serpent Queen to guide my every step. And this we did!

Welcome to The Wandernaught!

My name is Tertius van der Merwe.

I am a husband and friend; musician; music producer; artist; entrepreneur; systems analyst and a metaphysical philosopher. That’s me, on Earth, in a nutshell.

This blog will mainly focus on the last bit, the metaphysical philosopher.

Am I a card carrying metaphysical philosopher?

Goodness no. Never had any interest in official qualifications. Too official for my taste.

But I do have a lot of insights which I tend to not share in social interactions, simply because the subject, when I get into it, is very intense, very challenging, and based on core assumptions.

Now. For you as reader, and hopefully follower of this blog, it would be a good idea if we start from a common understanding around these core assumptions. So here they are:

• There exists a reality in this universe which cannot be sensed by our 5 senses, and cannot be measured by our scientific instrumentation. 
• Extra Terrestrial life is real.
• Extra Terrestrial interference on the Earth is very old, and on-going.
• All mainstream science is flawed. 
• All religion, including the new age permutations, are a control system.
• The Being called God, exists.
• God is NOT my creator.
• God is but one co-creator of this Universe. But he was not the original creator of this universe.
• God sits at the pinnacle of an ancient global conspiracy to enslave humanity. The conspiracy runs deep, and has had countless names and permutations. 
• Faith, worship, prayer and some types of meditation, are control mechanisms of God and his enslavement conspiracy.
• All life is sacred (including God’s).
• The Goddess is equally real.
• The Goddess is the Mother, Womb of our co-creation with the original creative Being who first manifested this universe. She is the feminine side of that Being. God is NOT the mother's male companion. As with this universal Mother, that Being does not care for titles, and definitely not for any worship of any kind! 
• The Goddess is generally at the opposite and receiving end of the God conspiracy, universally.
• The Goddess resides in many key places such as: the Earth, Orion and the Milky Way Galactic Centre.
• I have shared infinite lifetimes with the Mother as intimate lover; as friend; as advisor; as avid, often even zealous, admirer – always as an equal.
• I, Tertius, have many Extra Terrestrial identities, and I am incarnated in many star systems. Some incarnations are human, some humanoid, some avian and some reptilian. 
• This universe operates on a fractal and binary wave-form principle, which encompass every single aspect of experience in it; on all levels of frequency and amplitude. 
• There are untold number of universes which operates on completely different rules than this universe. Some universes interweave with each other.
• This universe is completely separated from other universes, and not that easy to leave, once entered.
• My origin and home is in another universe.
• The truth be told, I am pretty much done with this universe. In other words, my mission is to “get er done”.

I think that about sums it up.

So. In my posts, this is the angle from which I look at and deliberate about, the world around me.

If any of these assumptions are problematic to you, the reader, then my friendly suggestion is that you do your own research, and follow the wisdom and Truth of your own Being, which is best accessed in your human heart / intuition (and not in your mind) .

I am not going to explain, discuss, justify or argue any of these core assumptions with anyone in the comments of my posts, which I will leave open.

Why not?

Because I have no time and energy, nor any interest, to argue the validity of my core assumptions. I have no obligation to explain nor prove anything to anyone. Deal with it :)

I hope you will enjoy this journey with me, and that we can teach each other many awesome new things.